How do you know if cancer treatment is working?
This is the question I get asked the most: “So Doc, how do I know that this is working?” Sometimes my patients come to me with visible or palpable disease—something on the skin that they can see fading away, an enlarged lymph node in the neck that shrinks visibly during treatment, a lump or a bump that disappears, much to the gratification of both patient and doctor. But most of the time, this is not the case. Most of the time, the tumors are either deep inside, and not seen or felt, or the tumor has been removed, and we radiation oncologists are called in to do “clean up” work after the surgeon. As disturbing as it might be to a patient, most of the time, we don’t actually know that “it”, meaning the radiation, is working.
I’m old enough to know that life is not black or white, right or wrong, on or off. But still, as an optimist, I am a person who likes absolutes—I have always believed that if you play by the rules, you deserve to win. I dot all of my “I’s” and I cross my “T’s”. I was the kid who NEVER colored outside the lines in my coloring book, and now that I am a grown up, everything should be in place: my patients will attest to the fact that I am likely to rearrange the furniture in the consultation room if the cleaning people have set anything off kilter. I don’t see this as obsessive-compulsive—I see it as maintaining order in a disordered world. I like to see justice served, the plates cleared off after dinner, and I do not eat dessert first. In my linear world, the beginning is the consultation, the ending is the cure. The daily radiation treatments are the means to that end. Why should my patients expect less?
So what do I tell my patients who ask tentatively, half way through treatment, “Is it working?” when they have the invisible tumors, the ones deep inside, or the ones where the surgeon took most of it and we’re seeking out and destroying those microscopic stragglers? One of my teachers once said, meaning to be humorous, “Radiation works best when there is no disease!” Even the patients with the palpable masses that melted away—how can we be sure that every last malignant cell is gone? At the end of treatment, my patients want to be told that their disease has been vanquished and will never come back. Some doctors will oblige. They will say “We got it all”. Or they say, “You are cancer free.” This is despite the fact that there is not a single diagnostic test on the planet that can support that claim.
We oncologists prefer to use the word “remission.” Or “complete response.” As in, “You are in remission.” Or “You have had a complete clinical and radiographic response to treatment.” We would love to say, “Your cancer is cured,” because that is ever so much more satisfying than stating the truth, which is that we do not and cannot know for sure. Sometimes, somethings, some days—you just have to take it on faith and try to move on. Even if you are not a believer.
Here is what I tell my patients. I tell them that first the side effects will fade from their bodies and their memories. And then there will come a day when they will actually miss the camaraderie and support that they got from their chemotherapy and radiation teams. I tell them that the sun will rise and the sun will set, and they will bravely put one foot in front of the other. And one day, before they know it, they will wake up and stretch and smile and they will have forgotten, just in that moment, that they ever had cancer. And that’s when they will know, it worked.
Miranda Fielding is a radiation oncologist who blogs at The Crab Diaries.
Katie
And second.. Katie... don't you KNOW the CURE is in a closet in some drug company???
Keep the apricot pits, coffee enemas and whateverthef*kelse they got going on coming my way. We call it SNAKE oil....
I'm in the midst of supporting the lung cancer people on my blog. I feel horribly because besides being blamed, they are shunned. While we are bathing in pink ribbons they are left with nothing. I supposed that's how/why I missed your tweet.
Well said, as ALWAYS....
xoxox
Katie
I think sometimes it's not about blame, but rather about helplessness. The need to do something to help, even when help is impossible. Of course, when it's total strangers, and a year later, that's totally a different story.
I wrote a post a few months back called Lost in Translation (http://lovelykatielumps.blogspot.ca/2012/10/lost-in-translation.html) and I talked about the difference between what people said and what they meant. When someone told me about her aunt who died of breast cancer last year, it was difficult not to say 'Why are you telling me about another person who died from a disease that I have?' but I learned that they were trying to connect. What they were saying is 'I know how painful this must be for you because I have some experience with cancer.' I am grateful that I could see past the words and explore the meaning.
And you're so right that people feel helpless. The best way I can explain it is to compare it to raising children. I don't have kids and so if a friend of mine was having trouble with one of her kids, it wouldn't be very helpful for me, some without kids, to go over and tell her what to do. Instead, I would ask her how I could help her and listen about her struggles. It's not my place to offer advice about something that a)I don't have experience with and b)have not been asked to. Does this make sense?
Thanks for connecting, I really appreciate your comment.
Katie
i can understand how this post was brewing for some time - what a bunch of thoughless (and i mean that in a most literal way) claptrap you have had to endure. it begs the question when in the world will people keep their opinions to themselves, AND realize that assigning BLAME for another's disease is just plain cruel and s-t-o-o-o-p-i-d. this was a great post, and i hope you feel much better after writing it.
love, xo,
karen, TC
I quite honestly don't think people are trying to be cruel, I just don't want to be told how to be a cancer patient/survivor the same way I wouldn't tell a man how to be a man or a mother how to be a mother. I am neither a man nor a mother so I can't speak from experience. No one is trying to intentionally offend me (at least I hope not) but to say that eating fruit will cure cancer and calling chemo a failure is irresponsible. It's just not that cut and dry.
Thanks for the message,
Katie
Hearing/reading people on the internet saying that X, Y, and Z are cures for cancer and the pharmaceutical companies are just keeping them hidden really makes me rage.
I am a full supporter of people trying alternative medicine - I certainly have done a lot of research on different approaches - but it's when people start telling me that my approach is wrong or how they would have dealt with it differently (having never had cancer, I feel as though it's somewhat easy to throw out opinions) that I get frustrated.
Katie
I admire your courage of what you feel that is your choice.. I too was DX with cancer two years ago and had to face the world of chemo.. I am not disagreeing with you, but I know there is other ways to manage cancer. With a lot of research I found other options and acted on them. I was able to manage my cancer with modern technology and natural remedies. This is called FUNCTIONAL MEDICINE.
Knowledge is power and if I can help others to open up to what is out there, that can manage cancer without surgery, chemo and radiation why not... I feel it is every ones choice on what they need to do for themselves....Managing cancer is a life change and not one thing will cure it.... But to blame one for cancer is just wrong... It happens to everyone and you should be able to make the decision on what type of quality of life you want... I have a web site that I started during my treatment and have continued it with all kinds of ways of preventions and ways to handle situations with cancer.
It is only to help, not to hinder.... KNOWLEDGE IS POWER and why would you not want others to know that there are other ways to manage cancer?
Just because I did not have chemo and lose my hair does not mean that I do not understand what you have gone through... I had cancer and feel different and besides for I had several members of my family that had been affected with this illness. They all had chemo and side effects.
Check out my journey before you hate my guts for thinking out side the box... www.thejourneytogoodhealth.blogspot.com
I certainly don't think alternative medicine is wrong, I think I made that clear in my post. I admire your approach to your cancer but that's just it, it's your cancer and my cancer was my cancer so for me to tell you that you NEED chemo is not appropriate the same way I don't want to hear that my choice was wrong, because I made an informed decision and it was right for me. I loved when someone came to me and had a discussion about choices, approaches, and alternatives when it came to cancer. It is the preaching that drives me. It is the 'you know, I wouldn't get treatment if I had cancer, I would do yoga to rid myself of the tumour' - that pisses me off.
I have a difficult time listening to someone preach about how they would deal with cancer if they were ever faced with it. As I mentioned in a previous comment, I feel as though it's comparable to me telling a friend how to raise her child. I don't have children, so I don't think it would be fair to tell her how I would mother my child because the truth is no matter how many books you read or people you talk to, unless you've experienced something, you just can't fully understand it.
Something else that I didn't address was different forms of cancer too, there are different types, different locations, and different stages and to say that one thing will cure all cancers is irresponsible - like you said (and I love) 'managing cancer is a life change and not one thing will cure it.'
I am always open to discussions, I just don't want to be preached to. I have put a lot of pressure on myself to do this cancer thing 'right' and as I move along in this 'journey' I learn more and more that there is no right way to do this and I think the same can be said for treatment - there is no right way, there is only the way that you choose.
I want to make it clear that I am not against alternative medicine or approaches. It would be closed minded of me to say that chemo or surgery is the only (or correct) way but it was the right approach for me.
Thanks again for reaching out and connecting,
Katie
Thank you for taking the time to write to me. This post has certainly generated a lot of dialogue and your comment was so refreshing.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for all that you do. Your ladies are very lucky to have you.
Katie
I loved sour sop when I lived on Antigua years ago! Guess I didn't enjoy enough of it, hmm? That's the ticket! If only I would have known, I might have eaten more and avoided becoming a member of the BC club. If only it was that simple. Thanks for the great post!
JoAnn
I love it! I hope hoping someone was going to say that they used to eat a lot of soursop! Thank you for this. Again, I am not against alternative medicine but to come right out and call chemo a failure and soursop the cure is morally irresponsible.
Thanks for taking the time for letting me know that someone tried soursop and still got cancer...
Katie
Love your blog, check mine out at nancebeth.blogspot.com
I don't get it because there are people who don't eat bacon who get cancer, there are people who don't eat sugar and they get cancer, etc. etc. etc. so why do we do this to each other? Is the bacon person therefore saying that if we stop feeding our children bacon that no one will ever get cancer? Or is only people who have no other reason for getting cancer (hormones, genetics, exposure to second hand smoke, etc.), are they the only ones who should avoid bacon?
This kind of thing just drives me up the wall.
Thank you so much for your honesty! Can't wait to check out your blog!
Katie
It is shocking how many people tell me the reason for my cancer. I don't walk around telling parents the reason their children are acting up because I don't have children, how would I know? It's maybe not a perfect comparison, but I think it holds some truth.
Thanks again,
Katie
Thanks! Yes, in the beginning I think it was natural for me to seek out the truth behind me cancer but after seeing medical professional after medical professional totally baffled by my file, I learned that it wasn't because I took the pill or ate bacon or used deodorant it's because sometimes life is a shit sandwich!
Thank you for your wonderful comment. I am grateful for your 'me too' reply to my feelings.
Katie